Bring it on

You know those weeks when everything that could possibly goes wrong, goes wrong? 

This week started off as one of those weeks. I wasn't sleeping, I hadn't managed to get out running as much as I wanted to and every deadline I had tapped me on the shoulder just to say hello. Bun deadlines.

All in all, I felt pretty pants.

What I normally do in this case, is shut myself off. Attempt a happy exterior whilst on the inside I'm an utter mess.

So exhausted, tired and in need of some home comforts, I headed to Essex to see my grandparents on Sunday. As it turned out, this was exactly what I needed. Afterwards, back in Chorleywood, I managed chat with my some of my closest girl friends. I am so thankful to both my family and friends, who know me incredibly well, can bring wise words to each situation and are just brilliant support. 

What a difference perspective makes!

Yet, coming back to Oxford, all my problems have not vanished. I still have lots to think about, make decisions about and process. But, I am assured that it is in the hard times that we are refined. We may be brought to the brink of our abilities, emotional capacities and patience, but I believe we always come out stronger in the times when we feel most weak.

You are stronger than you think.

Especially when things are getting a bit too much, it can often be hard to not feel isolated or lonely. Loneliness is something which has sometimes scared me. I know there are and will be times when I am alone in a given situation or period of time. But, rather than choose to dwell on what is missing, or rather, who is missing from our lives.

I wonder if it is time to turn around that view point? Focus on being the person that shows other people what they're missing. This doesn't mean you have to be happy and cheery all the time, but try and find the good in situations, laugh at how ridiculously messy life can be. At least, that's what I aspire to do. 

Every time I've walked through town this week I've listened to this

...and silently sung along. I may have looked totally cray, but believe me it makes you feel awesome!!!*

On a more practical level, if you just need something uplifting, head to pinterest and search through the humour section, these are my favourite:

Apologies to the other people in the Rad Cam who had to work whilst I chuckled to myself, clearly 'essay writing.'

Tomorrow Zara and I are running the Silverstone Half-marathon. I have been trying not think about it the whole week, but having carb-loaded like mental today, I'm actually pretty excited for it. And yep it is possible to eat too much pasta, feeling like the pillsbury dough man, but instead of poking my belly and me laughing, things would look a little different #stuffed #michelin(wo)man.

Crazy it seems after the week it's been, I feel assured, joyful and strong.

So, 13.1 miles- hit me with your best shot**

Have a great weekend friends!xx

Over half way on the fundraising, thank you so much to all who have donated. For anyone who wants to donate you do so here: www.justgiving.com/jennygwyther

*Before you say it, I know the song is talking about a broken relationship, and yes Kelly Clarkson has done better songs, but overlook that and focus on belting out the chorus-way to make you feel empowered...oh my poor flatmates.

**Check out Rock of Ages, it is brilliant! Me and my Pa absolutely love it!

...Actually, in that case, probably don't, we're not known for our good taste in films...